Very sad...

Aiyo.. tis few days i just feel like crying.. very sad and stress.. so much things has happen and i donno y.. i really wanted to have some time for me to be alone.. i cant take it anymore!! i wanna go bali!! i wan to go there and relax myself as all the people there are stranger to me.. wish everything can refresh and start all over again.. alot of why in my life.. sad!! why is my life like tis??

Don wanna let my mind sleep... 1.50am

Just want to write what i can rmb before everything is gone... It was so funny, today i almost overslept in the train as i was dreaming while listening to mp3.. rmb how i met 'u'... rmb that i will go down to mac and find u when i m free.. u were even sleeping in the storeroom and donno that i m there and watch u sleeping so soundly.. funny was everything that flashed in my mind were the happy moment.. went to movie which i donno is a set up by who and how i scold u.. =) Forever u won't know how i pass that 2 years w/out u beside me when i m down, when its valentine's day and all he holidays... luckily i m independent enough, didn't rely on anyone and never ever blame whoever...

I m sure that the coming chal wont be the same as before.. I was wondering what to do.. i have always thot that i have found something precious to me already but i can't confirm now.. i hope to gather all the good memories to cover the bad ones but is difficult.. those good memories is starting to fade away slowly from my memories.. Gonna turn 21 and i donno wat i want yet.. though i m feeling very miserable, down and sad this few months, i hope that my future wouldn't be like tis, but to find someone who can really understand me and care for me..

Too much things to say.. 2.50am

Aw man!!! lots n lots of things to say.. heart pain? stress? confused? emptied? disappointed? sad? haiz i really donno which.. feeling damn down tis few days.. quarreling with sister and donno who to talk to.. stress at home, stress at work, stress in relationship.. y everything muz come together?? luckily still have some friends to to pull me up if not i donno wat am i going to do.. thx for the balloon though tt person wont noe .. and thx bell for cheering me up..

Y i need to lead tis kinda life?? i hate to be born here.. y do i have tis kinda father.. i really donno wat to do when he scolded me ytd.. was so hurt and tears can't stop rolling down.. no matter wat i m also her daughter.. haiz y cant be fair?? same thing, when he need help i m there.. i m always there for ppl who need help but y is there NO PPL TO BE THERE FOR ME????? why i it so unfair all the time? ppl don't appreciate wat u do for them!! How to be an emotionless person could someone teach me? tired of living... what i can say is who i can trust the most and love the most will be my mum, nobody else.. though mother is irritating and crassy sometimes but no matter what happen, she will be the correct person to turn to.. tired of crying.. little things can make me cry..haiz.. beside my mum, where is my true prince?? =(

Blurr.. 1.15am

haiz... so long since i last blog.. i find myself change alot, maybe is good? mayb is bad? i donno.. i have become more emotionless.. no more crying so much though i got lots of things hiding and didn't say out... Hope to have a place for me to be alone.. don wanna care abt wat's going on outside.. ppl are holding me high up and yet at the same time throw me down and i have enough.. i promise to be more independent n strong! WATCH ME! hmmmm... I CAN DO IT AND LOVE MYSELF MORE!!

Finally i'm done ^^ 3.05pm

Today i feel so tired.. i and my besties went to town to shop and eat.. aiyo.. i spend alot but donno what i spend on.. haiz today bought 2 cheese cake for my dear but 1 not nice, another 1 his fren oso got buy.. sad =( buy wrong thing.. damn it! Raining almost whole day today, spoil mood lor .. headache man!! hmmm... today will be my stress day!! argh!! k la free i will upload our photo =)wheeeeeeee~ steam bath tml! pooff!