THings wouldn't be the same.. 4.30am

Now i realised that no matter what things is done, it won't be so easily to erase it away anymore.. months & months have pass.. forever the pain will follow me.. nothing can amend.. =(

juz like the how those drama show once hurt, tt person won't be so easily forget things tt hurt her deeply till someone who really can care just like a guardian there to show concern for her.. my tears just like a water pipe, whenever u wan it to be on,it will be on and it will flow.. i cant control it.. 7 days more to my BD.. i can predict tt it will never be as happy as my 18th &19th birthday... everything have change..y is it like tt.. i don really wish to celebrate.. if i got the money, i would go oversea to be alone.. this blog is just like my diary.. whenever i m sad or happy i will write it here as no one will see it.. i just find it hard to tell someone.. what i know is i felt very hurt inside me...